Reflecting on 2023 – Growing Pains,
You started off with a bang, and we started the year off with nothing but the bits and pieces of our lives before.
It’s hard for me to put into words what this year has been like. I don’t think I have the eloquent words and witty sentences to entertain you guys.
Simply speaking; this year was hard. I always try to look back at the years and focus on our blessings. However, as the years have gone on, the silver linings have been getting harder and harder to reflect on. I guess this is where journaling comes into play. I have journalled throughout the year but not consistently. This is something I would love to change in 2024.
So 2023, what shall I say?
You were horrific and pushed me further into survival mode. I treaded water, acting calm and positive on the surface while flailing about underneath. You pushed me when I didn’t think I could be pushed any further.
You revealed more demons than I care to entertain. And made me see the pain for what it was and where it came from, instead of trying to talk myself out of feeling it, because who has time for that?
You also showed me how strong I am and how resourceful I can be; but can I just ask for 2024 to be a bit easier? I’m tired of my strength being tested. I know I am strong. But I need rest, I need softness. I need a place to lay my pain down.
2023, you showed me healing not just for me but for my husband too. The door to our pain also opened the door to healing. We are still working on it but gosh we are learning more and more about how to tend to our wounds then we ever used to know.
2023 you showed me angels that are the faces of every person that extended their hand to my family and me. To everyone that offered resources, items, money, a hug, a listening ear, an encouraging comment and a quiet space for me to just be without having to mask, I am truly thankful.
I know the world looks grim and dark right now, but I also know that there are far more angels that walk the earth than there are demons. Our light needs to shine greater than the darkness.
I am convinced that the only way I have managed to find myself out of darkness has been by holding on to the light and refusing to give it up. Even the past 3 years, despite how hard it’s been.. I still have hope that light will win.
2023 you have been wild, it’s been a year of growth, transformation, healing, learning, boundaries, openness, faith, laughter and so much feeling.
I am proud of my family and I. We once again got to the end of the year with a crazy amount of resilient, love and support.
So, here’s to 2024. May it be a more peaceful and wholesome year and I’m sure, the most abundant year.
In Love and Light
Amy
